If you have read my book The Hard Way or ever heard me give my testimony you know that I became a teen father at 19 years old and a few years later lost my rights as a father due to a drug addiction. I gave my son up for adoption to his mothers husband and I haven't seen him for 13 years.
Just the other week I spoke at a camp in New Jersey and then when I was done I had the amazing opportunity to go back to the church I grew up in just outside of Philadelphia and preach there. It was truly an amazing moment. About 900 people from all different times in my life came out to the service. Friends from high school, people from the church, even the nurse who pumped my stomach when I tried to commit suicide many years ago saw the advertisement and came out to see me.
I knew that they had put out advertisements on the radio and other places that I was going to be speaking at Family Worship Center. I also knew that my son who I hadn't seen in 13 years only lives a few miles away. That afternoon I just cried out to God and said, "Jesus, I don't care what he looks like, what he has done or what he wants to do with his life. I just desperately want to see my son and give him a hug." I sat there crying and sitting in Gods presence when I heard the Lord speak to my heart. He began to comfort me and I heard something that I felt was so profound and wanted to share with you. I felt the Lord say to me. "Jeremy, I know how you feel. I also dont care what they have done, what they look like or where they are going. I just want my children to come home so I can give them a hug."
This struck me so very hard. God the heavenly Father loves us so much more than I could even understand love. And just like me and my love for my son. Jesus loves you and even more to the point where he died for you. I began to weap for a different reason than missing my son. I began to weap because I came to an overwhelming realization of how much my heavenly father truly loved me.
I love the story of the prodigal son in Luke 15. The part in verse 20 where it says,
“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
I know this is what I would do if I ever got the opportunity to see my son again. I wouldn't want to hear about his mistakes to make sure I wanted to hold him. I would just hold him. Does sin have consequences? Yes it does. Does it separate you from the love of your Father? If you run to him for forgiveness he is waiting and will never reject you. I know this because I am a dad with a son I haven't seen in a long time, the love I have for my son is so great yet it doesn't compare to the love our Heavenly Father has for you and he is waiting for you to turn to him.
Ephesians 2 says:
3 All of us also lived among them at one time,gratifying the cravings of our flesh[a] and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature deserving of wrath. 4 But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5 made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.
You see its not about what you deserve its about what he has done.
Although my son didn't come that night I spoke it was still one of the greatest moments I have had getting to be with so many people that I knew through out my life.
I am still waiting for that moment when I get to run and hug my son. For some of you reading this, God wants you to know he is still waiting for that moment he gets to run and hug you. He is running towards you right now. Will you turn to him. I hope you understand that there is no need to hide. Just as I don't care where my son is in life. God doesnt care where you are, he simply wants to hug his child.